Today has been wonderful. I woke up at 6:30 and read my bible. Lately my relationship with Christ has been a challenge. I am a very emotional person and so when I don't feel God's presence in my life it is easy for me to feel as though he is non-existent. I haven't felt God in a long time, but he is teaching me so much through that. I know that my relationship with him has nothing to do with emotions; he is here with me right now as I write this even though I may not feel him.
He loves me.
He cares for my heart.
He makes all things glorious.
He is the good shepherd.
He is beautiful.
He is the author of my life.
He is forgiving.
He is gentle.
He is patient.
He is alive.
After kids program this morning I went for a run and then I went swimming in Lake Constance. As I was swimming I closed my eyes and felt the sun beating on my face. The delicate sound of the water surrounded me and as I opened my eyes I saw a swan swimming gracefully past me. The water looked like glass and the Alps were crystal clear in the distance. In that moment all I could say was, 'thank you Jesus'. He is ALWAYS faithful and he is ALWAYS good. The King of the universe is holding my heart. THE KING OF THE UNIVERSE!! Do you have any idea how amazing that is? It’s a big deal. Also, he wants all of me. He wants my life and my dreams and my desires. I don't want to be lukewarm; I want to live a life that is fully dedicated to him. I am not at that point yet. I am weak and foolish, I live so dependent on the flesh, I am sinful and disobedient, I am bitter and jealous, I am slow to listen and quick to speak, I am judgmental, I am selfish, I am prideful, yet he still loves me. The almighty, righteous, holy King loves me. ME! He sees me as righteous, he sees me as his daughter. All I can say is thank you Jesus.
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